In just a week

In just a week I have been through so much. I have had my wisdom teeth removed, I have lost a very close friend, got my heart broken again, learned who my real friends are, gained a good friend, gotten alot closer to God, gave up on someone special, and got a new perspective on my life.  I have had so many reasons to be mad at people and just to be angry period, but he Lord has helped me to realize that everything happens for a reason.  Even though I go through these things I would not change anything because I just thank God that I go through these things because they help me to show strength that I didn't even know I had...I truly feel blessed and everything has actually turned out to be a blessing....:-)

Irritated!!!!!

This is how I have been feeling lately, mostly at myself because of some of the choices I have been making.....this is about to change tho because it is just time to get right and do something new.

        

I CANT'T WAIT!!!

I cant wait to be in heaven with my heavenly father. Where I will be away from all of the evil and dispair of the world. That will be the best day of my life!!!

IDK!!!!

So one of my guy friends that I grew up with has come back into my life which is weird because I never ever would have thought of him.  He is a really cool and very down to earth person, which is what I like about him. I mean I could always talk to him about everything. And he also gets big points for having his life together, he has a car, a job, goes to school, and most of all he loves God.  But what is making me write about him is he is the first guy that I could maybe think we could possibly be something in the future, which scares the heck out of me....Im so not ready to even think about that, but most of all I know that if I started talking to him like that, there would be no chance of being back with you know who because im not that type of girl, once im talking to someone there is no flip flopping unless we just dont work.  Honestly im so not ready for another relationship, I still need to heal, but I guess only time will tell where I end up and who I end up with.  I am just going to be patient and see where it goes!!!!

Above the Influence!!!

Why do we feel like if everybody is doing something then it is ok to do.  Why cant we just be our own person?? Why do we have to follow one another??? Why cant we just stand on our own???  Why do people feel if they smoke or drink they are cool???  Little do they know it just makes you look real stupid.  We as young people we have a duty to ourselves and most of all to God.  He wants us to be able to stand up for whats right with no fear.  People in the world today are scared of standing alone because they dont want to be an outcast.  You came in this world alone so that should tell you something, you dont need no one in this world, but God.

At ThE EnD oF ThE Day!!!

If I CaN InFlUeNcE aT LeAsT OnE PeRsOn iN ThIs wOrLd, ThEn I Will Be SuPeR HaPpY!!!! MaYbE I aLrEaDy HaVe, I DoNt KnOw!!!!

Its Time!!!

Today ends my 3 week fast.  In just three weeks it is amazing how much I have grown.  This fast has helped me to see things in a different light.  At first I really didnt think that I could do it, but as time went on I just grew closer and closer to my God. I am so happy for what he has done in my life these past weeks and I am even happier to know what he will do in my future.  Everything that I have went through was so worth getting to the place I am now.  I just hope that this continues because of course somethings will try to get my focus, but I know as long as I have him as my driver than I know I will be ok!!!

God is SO Good!!!!

I came home to a wonderful surprise MY BROTHER is home.  Man I feel so happy, I could just start doing the harlem shake everywhere.  It is truly a blessing because I feel like my family is whole again.... All smiles over here!!!!

I LoOk To HiM AbOvE FoR My AnSwErS!!!!

I feel like as a person, I  am making some huge steps in my life and I feel so blessed to be where I am.  I feel like for a while now God has been trying to tell me something and for a long time I ignored him because I was hard headed and I wanted to do what I wanted to do. Finally I surrendered to him and I did what I had to do and I am so thankful because it has made me so much stronger. I know that God has a plan for me and I cant wait to see what he has in store for me.  I just thank him forthe good and the bad that I have gone through because all of that have contributed to the imperfect but perfect in his image person I am today.  I am more than thankful because through the roughest time of my life I felt so alone and I leaned on him and I was able to pick myself up and keep it moving. Honestly even though it was hard in the beginning, it is so much easier and I actually feel a sense of relief and just stress free.  I havent felt that way in a long time and its all due to the man above. I love him so much because no one can do what he has done for me......A1!!!!!

This CHICK right here is a beast. My Track Role Model Allison Felix!!!!

This is what keeps me SANE!!!!!

                      

Weight ofthe WORLD on my shoulders and Im still standing!!!!

The rainbow

I KNOW THAT AT THE END OF THIS STORM THERE WILL BE A:

Another year

I am finally about to turn the big:
. Im happy just to have seen another year come. Thank you God!!!!

This is Me!!!

Hopefully now you know a little bit more about ME!!!!!

Just me and God!!!

This has been a really long week for me.  God brought me down to one of my lowest points that I beleive I have ever been, but through him I was still able to find peace through the situation.  Even though I might not have any body on Earth by myside to help me through these times, I know I have God and as far as I am concerned he is all I need.  In times like this you find out who your real friends and who never really was. On the down side of this situation I realized I dont really have anyone physically by me, but on the up side this situation has helped me grow so much closer to God and I would take that relationship over any other relationship.  Its time to make changes, you can either grab my hand and make them with me or you can fall back and let me do me!!!!

Old Friends!!!

It feels good to have that group of friends that you can just let loose and be yourself around.  I hate that they live so far, but its a blessing to know that if I need them they would do everything in there power to be there for me.  I really couldnt ask for anything else.  Whats amazing is after all this time of not seeing eachother, when we do get around eachother its not awkward at all.  Thats what friends is!!!!  LOVING LIFE!!!!

I KNOW IM DIFFICULT!!!

I may come with a lot of things, but im promise that everything I may put you through im worth it.  Every minute that we may argue, just know that im worth it. Every minute that we mad at eachother, just know that im worth it.  Each moment that we spend not on the right terms, just know that I promise im worth it.  God made me this way and even though he made me in his perfect image, I am still a work in progress; making myself a better person everyday.  I may have those days where I am doing really good, but I also may have those days where my moods may get the best of me, but know that im trying.


 
                                                                                                   
                                                                                                                     

I wonder????

What made me so special?  What made me so special that God took the time out to make me this way?  Why did he take the time out to make me this specific height, this specific shade of brown, or with this specific personality.  Did he intentionally make me with these flaws so that I can learn to accept myself for the way I am or did he have other reasons for them.  Did he put certain people in my life so that I could learn from them or so they couldlearn from me: or maybe even both.  De he put me in certain situations to test my strength or so I could see that my strength is way more than I could ever imagine.  I give God his props because he is a very clever guy. All of his actions have reasons.  While I dont know these reasons and I dont think I ever will, I continue to live life and just be me....:)!!!