I CANT'T WAIT!!!

I cant wait to be in heaven with my heavenly father. Where I will be away from all of the evil and dispair of the world. That will be the best day of my life!!!

IDK!!!!

So one of my guy friends that I grew up with has come back into my life which is weird because I never ever would have thought of him.  He is a really cool and very down to earth person, which is what I like about him. I mean I could always talk to him about everything. And he also gets big points for having his life together, he has a car, a job, goes to school, and most of all he loves God.  But what is making me write about him is he is the first guy that I could maybe think we could possibly be something in the future, which scares the heck out of me....Im so not ready to even think about that, but most of all I know that if I started talking to him like that, there would be no chance of being back with you know who because im not that type of girl, once im talking to someone there is no flip flopping unless we just dont work.  Honestly im so not ready for another relationship, I still need to heal, but I guess only time will tell where I end up and who I end up with.  I am just going to be patient and see where it goes!!!!

Above the Influence!!!

Why do we feel like if everybody is doing something then it is ok to do.  Why cant we just be our own person?? Why do we have to follow one another??? Why cant we just stand on our own???  Why do people feel if they smoke or drink they are cool???  Little do they know it just makes you look real stupid.  We as young people we have a duty to ourselves and most of all to God.  He wants us to be able to stand up for whats right with no fear.  People in the world today are scared of standing alone because they dont want to be an outcast.  You came in this world alone so that should tell you something, you dont need no one in this world, but God.

At ThE EnD oF ThE Day!!!

If I CaN InFlUeNcE aT LeAsT OnE PeRsOn iN ThIs wOrLd, ThEn I Will Be SuPeR HaPpY!!!! MaYbE I aLrEaDy HaVe, I DoNt KnOw!!!!

Its Time!!!

Today ends my 3 week fast.  In just three weeks it is amazing how much I have grown.  This fast has helped me to see things in a different light.  At first I really didnt think that I could do it, but as time went on I just grew closer and closer to my God. I am so happy for what he has done in my life these past weeks and I am even happier to know what he will do in my future.  Everything that I have went through was so worth getting to the place I am now.  I just hope that this continues because of course somethings will try to get my focus, but I know as long as I have him as my driver than I know I will be ok!!!

God is SO Good!!!!

I came home to a wonderful surprise MY BROTHER is home.  Man I feel so happy, I could just start doing the harlem shake everywhere.  It is truly a blessing because I feel like my family is whole again.... All smiles over here!!!!

I LoOk To HiM AbOvE FoR My AnSwErS!!!!

I feel like as a person, I  am making some huge steps in my life and I feel so blessed to be where I am.  I feel like for a while now God has been trying to tell me something and for a long time I ignored him because I was hard headed and I wanted to do what I wanted to do. Finally I surrendered to him and I did what I had to do and I am so thankful because it has made me so much stronger. I know that God has a plan for me and I cant wait to see what he has in store for me.  I just thank him forthe good and the bad that I have gone through because all of that have contributed to the imperfect but perfect in his image person I am today.  I am more than thankful because through the roughest time of my life I felt so alone and I leaned on him and I was able to pick myself up and keep it moving. Honestly even though it was hard in the beginning, it is so much easier and I actually feel a sense of relief and just stress free.  I havent felt that way in a long time and its all due to the man above. I love him so much because no one can do what he has done for me......A1!!!!!